Who am I ?

Who am I ? The man –pleasing spirit.

Do you ever struggle with your identity? Knowing who you are? Do you ever experience a fear of rejection wanting so badly to be accepted by people? This used to be me but Jesus showed me the power of His unconditional love and that I am accepted by Him.

Psalms 139:14 “I will praise you because I am FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY made” 🙂

Now let us drop the man-pleasing spirit #themanpleasingspirit #whoamI

I’m talking about the man-pleasing spirit because I believe that it stems from a fear of rejection…

 

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The Waiting Game

Ok so does this happen to you or is it just me? The question on everyone’s lips sooooo when are you getting married? People are so funny I don’t really know what they want me to say: “Don’t worry about what I’m doing worry about why you’re worried about what I’m doing.” My future is in God’s hands! #Godknows :-). When you become accustomed to living your life for Christ there are certain things that become essential – one of them is trusting God. #whentheykeeptalking

The real question they should be asking is – teach me how to wait! Marriage is not the end of the game, even after you get married, you still have to wait on God! Don’t get distracted by what God is doing in anyone else’s life – just wait. People always want to question what God is doing – Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?? (Job 38 v 4)

Waiting is trusting:

These days people put their trust in all kinds of things, when you go on holiday you buy a ticket and board a plane, you trust the pilot to get you to your destination right? You don’t keep running up to the front of the plane asking him questions – are we still going to America? Not China? Are you sure you’re going in the right direction? Can I see your pilot’s license please? You don’t sit down panicking the whole journey worrying about whether you will make it to your destination? You don’t take matters into your own hand and start trying to fly the plane yourself! You sleep, you watch films, you chat to friends, you WAIT and believe that the pilot will get you to your destination. Right? Well that’s what it means to trust. #Jesusisthepilot #waitingistrusting

#Whentheystartaskingyouwhyyou’renotmarried! #itsnoteveryday #whywait #waitingistrusting

One night I was talking on the phone to my friend about this whole subject of marriage & I fell asleep with my bible next to my pillow….

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What’s my Purpose?

Have you ever asked this question?  What is the purpose of my life? ?

Ok so this was one of my prayers at the start of the year – Lord reveal to me my purpose! I was looking for something specific – God what did you create me to do? Imagine how sad it would be to get to the end of your days and not even fulfil your purpose on the earth! There are some prayers that God will answer almost immediately; others can take months or even years for God to answer!  All I know is that God has a purpose for everything that He created.

To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven (Ecclesiastes 3 v 1)

Lord what’s my purpose?

“I created you for you to worship Me”.  What does this mean though? I created you for My glory (Isaiah 43 v 7). When God looks at your life do you make Him look good?

The sermon at church last Sunday was on worship and it answered all of my questions on purpose. I need to go deeper. God is so faithful. Your life needs to bring God glory, everywhere you go, in everything you do – God says “I created you for you to worship Me.” 🙂 The devil desires to be worshiped but only Jesus deserves to be worshiped! Everything about you was handcrafted by God.  We have to know that we owe Him everything!

Eve’s Purpose?

You see when Eve was in the garden of Eden, she lost sight of her purpose!  God created her from the rib of Adam he called her to be a wife and a helper to Adam, but first and foremost Eve was created in the image of God #ForHisGlory   [Genesis 1 v 27…in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them]. Eve was one of God’s image bearers in the earth. But she forgot her purpose. In Genesis chapter 3 Eve started confiding in the serpent (the devil) talking about how God told them not to eat of the tree in the midst of the garden.  But the thing is – why was Eve talking to the devil? :-/  She was created in the image of God #ForHisglory, why was she sharing God’s secrets with the devil?  See Eve forgot her purpose!

#IcreatedyouforyoutoworshipMe

In Genesis 3 v 6 we read that Eve ate of the forbidden fruit and then gave some to Adam to eat as well, she didn’t forget that she was a wife, she remembered to feed her husband! But she didn’t remember that she was created by God #ForHisGlory. When God asked her what happened she said “the serpent deceived me and I ate.”  The serpent deceived her because she gave him a platform to speak.  As a result God had to banish them from the garden. See Eve was talking to the devil instead of listening to God, when you do that you lose sight of the reason why you were created.

#Icreatedyouforyoutoworshipme #Formyglory

Whilst praying about this topic I was reminded of the words my Pastor in New York spoke to me in 2008 when I was indecisive about what to do with my life.  He said to me ‘I believe that you’re saved but you still want to be in the driving seat of your life, when you get saved you have to let God be in the driving seat.’ He told me to go home and pray about where God wants me to be – so I did – and God told me quite quickly that I was supposed to go back to London – so I did. The Pastor also said ‘you have a characteristic that draws people, God gave you that so He could use it for His glory, not so that you could use it for your glory!’

So there we have it – “I created you for My glory”. #Whatsmypurpose

When I initially asked this question I wanted something specific, like what exactly do I do Lord, how do I bring You glory Lord?  God told me not to lose myself – He said think about your greater purpose on this earth and think about how you can be a blessing to someone, whatever season of life you are in. Some people just spend their whole single life waiting for marriage it’s a waste of a whole season of life. Use your singlehood to bless someone. When you are pursuing your purpose God will meet all of your needs.

We need to take practical steps in finding out God’s purpose for our lives – how exactly do we bring Glory to God in our individual lives. I am reminded of the parable of the talents in Matthew 25. The reality is that God has given everyone different gifts and talents, you may have the gift of speaking, you may be able to speak words that change people’s lives #useitforHisglory, you may have the talent to sing, then sing people out of bondage, out of death, hell and the grave #useitforHisglory, you may have a good memory, you can memorise scripture and it rolls off your tongue, that’s fine #useitforHisglory. If your talent is writing – write for God. When you are pursuing your purpose you will discover talents you didn’t even know that you had.

#ForHisGlory #Icreatedyouforyoutoworshipme

We know that – Every good and perfect gift is from above and comes down from the Father of lights (James 1 v 7). God gave us these things so that he could use them not so that we could misuse them!

My prayer:  Lord you have given me all of these talents and abilities; show me what you want me to do! Lord illuminate my path and teach me how to walk in my purpose!

See now is not the time to be seeking counsel from the devil! Don’t be like Eve, making moves with the serpent when you should be talking to God!

Find your passion, pursue Christ and live out your purpose.  God doesn’t make any mistakes!  Everything that He created has a purpose!

#ForhisGlory #Icreatedyouforyoutoworshipme

Thanks for reading.

Hope you are encouraged!  🙂

 

 

 

Faith: Walking on Water

Have you ever wondered what it really means to trust God? What is faith?

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

I’ll tell you about my journey of financial faith, I call it walking on water.

“Why do you continue to doubt Me when I have proven myself to you time and time again” God said.

I was at church it was 2011 I had graduated from Law School and was in search of my Pupillage, that’s the last stage of training to qualify as a Barrister. When I graduated from Law School in 2010 I was offered a job as a Paralegal, it was a 2 month contract that turned into a 3 month contract. When the project ended we were let go without notice. That’s the nature of the work. But that’s how my journey began. At the back of my mind I was only doing these temporary jobs to kill time before getting my Pupillage.

Around September 2010 it became very quiet in the world of Temp Paralegals so I didn’t work for a bit. In between contracts I would go to the Job Centre and sign on, I would receive housing benefits and a weekly sum of money until my next contract came. Every time I would go to the job centre I would feel darkness, sadness, really is this my life? After all of these years of studying? With God on my side? Is this really what it has come to? I would pray for a job and nothing would come for months. It got to the point where I decided to stop signing on and that’s when I actually got a job. It happened to me about three times in between contracts – I would go to sign on and then all of a sudden I would get a call or an email to start a new contract. One time I was in a meeting at the Job Centre where they were asking me for my passport but during the meeting I received a phone call inviting me to a telephone interview, I knew that I was going to get the job so I didn’t bother to complete the meeting. I did get the job. This was when I began to feel God telling me not to sign on at the job centre even if I am in between contracts I was to learn to lean on God completely. Furthermore it was only when I went to sign on that God intervened and gave me a job. God was giving me breadcrumbs and letting me know that He was fully in control. God could actually give me a job any time he wanted to. Moving on, so in 2011 I was at church on a Wednesday evening and a sister gave a prophecy:

“Why do you continue to doubt me when I have proven myself to you time and time again?” 🙂

I realised that each time I would go to sign on God would give me a job, so why did I keep going through the motion of signing on – this was a Word for me. #Godsgotthis #Godspeakstome

After this day I told God that no matter how bad it gets I’m not going back to the Job Centre to sign on. I’m trusting in you Lord. Jehovah Jireh – not Jehovah Giro. I didn’t need to gather multiple opinions on this matter I knew God had spoken to me so clearly. #Myprovider

… that’s where it all started, I’ve come too far to turn back now. I saw many miracles along the way, from sums of money all of a sudden appearing in my account, to the Inland Revenue sending me cheques for tax refunds that I didn’t even ask for. God is so faithful. It has never been as bad as it is now I’m in debt. But I’m living my best life now #God’s got this.

Quick Tip: Don’t let the devil lie to you – Whenever you are on your purpose the devil will try and distract you and offer you a shortcut. We are not ignorant of his devices. #dealingwiththedevil #newpost

. . . Flash forward its February 2016 and I’m praying God direct my steps. I’ve worked for about 20 hours this year – yep I said hours. I haven’t worked a normal 9 – 5 since October 2015. I got a new car in November 2015. I worked at a couple of trade shows and events here and there but right now I don’t know where my next pay cheque is coming from and I need the peace of God that surpasses all understanding. 😉 God is teaching me what it really means to live by faith. God has a plan. #Godsgotthis

My Prayer: Lord if I’m having a Job experience please let me keep my car haha #2015plate #peugeot108 #lovemycar. In case you’re wondering when God tested Job He allowed the devil to take away everything that Job owned to see if Job would curse God. Job passed the test.

#livingmybestlifenow #justshalllivebyfaith

At the beginning of this quiet season in my life I was earnestly searching for a job everyday. I actually got a job as a Teaching Assistant (which I thought would be a new career option) but it has taken 6 weeks and counting for them to get my crb. Still waiting :-/ When I found myself applying for a job as a ‘sandwich maker’ – I knew I was starting to insult God, it’s too much He’s the Maker of heaven and earth,  I really had to stop and pray. #Godwillgetyourattention

If God really wanted me to have a job I would have one. Right? There’s many things that I can do there’s no need for me to spend my days making sandwiches. There must be a greater purpose. I realised that God doesn’t want me to work at least for this season of my life. God if you don’t want me to work what do you want me to do?

“Sit at my feet and in my presence you will be made whole!” #Godspeakstome

I had to let the job search go. This was an opportunity for me to spend time with God. He knows I have bills to pay He knows all these things and yet He puts His thumb on me and says:

“Sit at my feet and in my presence you will be made whole.”

#Matthew6:25-34 #Donotworry #whoisthiskingofglory #mymaker #prayabouteverything #worryaboutnothing

I should wake up and sit at your feet Lord? I’ve been doing this for the past few weeks and I actually have great peace. I asked for the peace of God that surpasses all understanding. I’m not worried about bills I know that God will come through, He is fully in control.

That’s how I spend my days, wake up, pray, listen to God, listen to music, read my bible, read a Christian book. I’ve managed to cover all of my bills except for my rent. I recently received a rent arrears letter from the council which I have left on my living room table – Lord you can see that I owe them money I’ll leave it in your hands. People have been panicking & sending me job vacancies, but it’s alright I know that when God is ready for me I will have a job.

“Rev 3:18 – I know your works, see I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.”

I need to find that open door! I’m not trying to get anywhere God doesn’t want me to be. #faith

I started a war room in my living room (those that have seen the film know what I mean) and this is where I have been spending my days with the Lord. I can literally spend hours on end praying reading and writing.

This Monday someone from church sent me a video of a prophecy that I gave one time during a church service. The person said they were just deleting videos from their phone and came across it.

God works in mysterious ways because the Word was timely for my current season, God is so faithful:

The God that never leaves my side:

“For I am preparing you for where I am taking you to, though I am grinding you be patient in tribulation and even in the midst of the fiery furnace know that I am with you for I am refining you. And I will bring you out and you will be replenished and then I will launch you forth into a destiny and when you ask Me I will deliver the nations into your hands as your inheritance, for you have been faithful and you have trusted in me, now is not the time for you to be dismayed now is not the time for you to be anxious but now is the time for you to be steadfast for I am more than able to complete all that I began I am more than able to fulfil all of my promises, do not marvel at what I have said for My Words are Spirit and they are Life.” Says the Lord 🙂

#Godspeaksthroughme #Godspeakstome

I have learnt so many things this week, there’s so much to tell I just can’t fit it into one post – I’ll have to share my other lessons in my next blog.

#unconditional love #yourmakerisyourhusband 😉

Hope this post was inspiring 🙂

#walkingbyfaith #walkingonwater #justshalllivebyfaith #bestdaysareahead

 

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Wisdom is a free gift!

You know when you sit back and watch a situation play out and you’re thinking but why did they do this? Why is this person behaving like that? Can they not see? Well maybe they can’t. You don’t ever want to be that person that people look at and think wow why did they do that? Could they not see? #wisdomisafreegift.

Let he who lacks wisdom ask and God will give it generously – James 1 v5 #generously

Lord give me wisdom and the Mind of Christ. 🙂

Ever since I’ve started praying this prayer I’ve started seeing things in a different perspective. I’ve come to realise sometimes people say and do things due to a genuine lack of wisdom. Good intentions but no wisdom.  It’s a privilege to be able to see the things that someone else cannot see it means you are in a position to pray for them.  #wisdom #intercession #sometimespray

Martin Luther King Jr said it best when he said “nothing in all the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity.”

I used to try and work out situations: Why would they do that? What were they hoping to achieve?  It was the sincerity of the ignorance that disturbed me the most. At the end of the day when the blind lead the blind they will both fall into a ditch!

#dontbethatperson #ignoranceisdangerous #wisdomisafreegift

The reality is sometimes people just don’t know any better – just pray. I’ve been praying Lord give me wisdom and the mind of Christ : -)  I have come to realise that if someone cannot see what they are doing how are they going to change. It’s like getting annoyed at a blind man for walking into a wall – He can’t see where he’s going and you can’t give him back his sight – only God can.

Lesson of life: Sometimes people need to get their own experiences – the reason why your testimony is so powerful is because you’re talking from your own experience.   Sometimes you may watch someone doing something silly you know exactly how it’s going to play out but you can’t tell them because they won’t understand they may listen but they won’t understand.  If a person cannot see something for themselves all you can do is pray, sit back and relax.

God is in control. #wisdomisafreegift

My Words are Spirit & they are Life!

I used to find myself sitting down listening to nonsense. Seriously! Imagine sitting down listening to someone who does not even have a clue what they are talking about. The person has no power to affect or influence God’s will for your life – why are you even giving them a platform. David said be careful what you set before your eyes – I say be careful what you set before your ears.

Opening your mind up to negative words can only have negative effects, words  are spirit.

Sometimes you can get your hopes up for something that is never going to happen all because you’re listening to someone who is telling you what you want to hear. It may sound nice it may feel good but it’s still a lie.  Why give so much time and energy to someone who has absolutely no power to determine or derail the direction of your life. Instead go to God, His Word will never return void.

Don’t rack your brain trying to make sense out of nonsense #dismissandreject #notmyportion

I used to find myself having mind battles all because I’m sitting down over-thinking and over –analysing a situation which stems from the meaningless words and opinions of people.

What does God say about your situation – just listen to that, if people are talking ask yourself do these words line up with the Word of God for my life.

#keeptalking #watchmefly #onwardsandupwards #mydaddystheking

The merciful God of prophecy:

“Anxiety in the heart of man causes depression, but why do you worry, do you not know that my Words are Life? Run to me! I’m asking you to run to me and I will hide you underneath my pavilion For I have called you onto greater things but you must first win the battle in your mind” says the Lord. 🙂

Mind battles are often caused by a conflict of voices in your mind. You must decide who  you are going to listen to. Do not listen to the negative words of a man, meditate on it and esteem it as the Word of God. God says on My Word you shall meditate day and night (Psalms 1:2)

“In order to bring me down you gotta be able to reach me”

#icantcomedownthere  #itsjusttoolow

……….. hmmmmmm 🙂  well like I said #dontmeditate #riseabove #peoplearehuman #yougottareachme1st

When you are in the will of God you have perfect peace, confusion and chaos is not of God.

How do you identify the voice of God – align it up with his WORD.

FOR I HAVE ESTEEMED MY WORD ABOVE MY NAME says the Lord 🙂  (Psalms 138:2)

2015 ‘What a Year’

What happens in 2015 stays in 2015. Sooooo many people have said 2015 was a serious year.

This was a year of testing and trials but God showed me that He is so so faithful, God is more than able to fulfill all of His promises.

Prophecy

2015 was the year I received the gift of prophecy. The bible says we should earnestly desire the best gifts – that’s what I asked for some years back can’t remember exactly maybe  in 2013 or 2014. Anyhoooo one day I was in church service and as I was speaking out in tongues during prayer time this message came to me it was something I had never experienced before, but I was so afraid to say it out I waited until after the service and told the message to the Pastor. For the next few months I struggled with my nerves as I earnestly prayed and asked God to increase my faith so that He can use me. It’s funny how people try to catch you out at first really it is funny like people start asking strange questions and acting like you’re making up the gift  – don’t worry when God wants to use your life He will baffle the spectators and silence your critics. That’s my story. If you’ve asked God for something then just focus on doing what God has called you to do. God is faithful – It’s too much for words. 2015 was the year when God purged, purified and set His church in order.

“I will purge the rebels from among you for you are my body and I must purify you” says the Lord 🙂

“I am the watchman of My House and I am the Gatekeeper of My House, for I stand at the gate and I watch” says the Lord 🙂

2015 was the year when people really had to learn that God is in control – the Master Orchestrator.  Certain plots had to come to a rapid end in 2015 because except the Lord builds the house they labor in vain that build. They really do labour in vain. So we thank God that He always gets the last word 🙂 #mydaddystheking.

“Sit back and relax, God is in control”

Tucson

When I write my story I’ll tell you about my days of living in New York City with dreams of moving to Los Angeles and living that ‘American Dream.’ To cut a long story short 2015 marked 7 years since I had been back to the United States. I had to apply for a Visa which on previous occasions had been denied. God knew if I got that visa a moment earlier I would probably have never come back to London haha:-) So 2015 I got my US visa and in June I went to a bible conference in Tucson Arizona. Afterwards I stopped over in New York City with some friends as  a pre – birthday celebration Chapter 30 baby!!! Powerful week of serious messages and sermons – great deals at the New York outlets.

Faith

This was a year when my faith was tested in more ways than one. Trust me I was living on the edge mountain and valley type living. At the beginning of the year I asked God to help me draw near to Him so that I’ll be able to go to God before man in every situation. I found myself in situations where no one understood what I was going through but God. It was difficult for me to comprehend at first, I found myself questioning peoples intentions and motives,  but then I found myself praying more and listening to the voice of God. It was then I began to realise God was drawing me nearer to Him and revealing His  will to me.

Lesson 1: When God tells you a secret or gives you a vision don’t get frustrated when it seems like people around you do not understand. The fact of the matter is that it was not for them to understand it was for you to understand.

It took me a while to realise what was going on. It got to the point where I felt everyone was telling me the opposite of what I knew God had already told me. It was around this time that I got a Word of knowledge from a brother at church “Another man is not in control of your life God is in control of your life because the bible says the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord.” This message set me free  – I was no longer seeking understanding from other people I rose to a deeper level of faith with God. But now I know what the scripture means in James 4:8 “draw near to God and He will draw near to you”. It’s an amazing experience to be close to God. Sometimes you feel like you’re getting far away from people, but really your just getting close to God so embrace it. When your getting close to God you start to see things with a different perspective. You learn to live above life’s circumstances. You get to see further than other people, you get to see the things that are unseen.

“When pigeons are fighting, eagles don’t get involved.”

If God has already told you something just focus on that. Don’t get involved with the pigeons rise up like the eagle. You gotta pick and choose your battles.

“Be still and know that God is close.”

Well guys that’s my first blog post hope you enjoyed the read. Just a little snap shot of my lesson of life for 2015. I’m looking forward to 2016:

The year of the Great Awakening, the Year of the Lord’s favor, the year of stability, the year of increase, the year of wisdom, the year of salvation 🙂

I thank God for the lessons of 2015. But we need to leave 2015 behind. 2016 is a precious year.

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